February 2013
Pro-Ana Expectation vs. Eating Disordered Reality
Expectation: Wake up one day, weigh yourself, and feel extremely happy, accomplished, and satisfied because you hit your "UGW"!
Reality: Wake up, weigh yourself, see that you are now ten pounds less than your original "UGW" and cry because you still see yourself as fat.
Expectation: You will be beautiful, thin, and look like a model naturally.
Reality: You might be thin, your hair will fall out by the handful, your skin will be dry, and your nails will be chipping.
Expectation: You will feel strong and in control when you walk past the kitchen and say "no" to food and "yes" to "Ana".
Reality: You will sit in front of a miniscule amount of food, on the brink of passing out for hours and hours debating whether or not to eat it. Crying, feeling weak, and in fact very out control.
Expectation: All the boys will want you and you will be the skinny friend.
Reality: You will lock yourself in your house and ostracize yourself from society. You will have no friends to be skinny in comparison to and you won't care if the boys want you or not.
Expectation: You will be perfect.
Reality: You will be far from perfect. You will become a number: your weight, your BMI, number of servings, grams of this, ounces of that, number of cups, amount of tablespoons and teaspoons, calories, hours until next allowed "meal", inches, centimeters, pounds, kilos, dress size, pant size. You will be obsessed with the unattainable: happiness and satisfaction.
November 2012
So
At the gym last night I did a biceps and back day. By the end of my workout I thought my arms were going to fall off! They are sore today but nothing compared to the last b&b day… That’s progress right?
davestrider:
why are clothes so expensive? i should not have to pay this much to not be naked. people should pay ME to not be naked
That moment...
You didn’t realize how hard you worked your legs and when you try to use the stairs…
I feel like I've gained a million lbs...
I know that I’ve gained but in all reality it shouldn’t be as much as the scale says… Maybe I’m binging more than I realize? Idk but I feel like a whale. My mind is not in a good place right now I need to go see someone.
Lies fitblr has told me and how to combat them:
Don't keep junk food in the house and you won't be tempted to eat it: Don't keep junk food in the house and you'll end up taking out the entire jar of nut butter with a spatula since it's the only thing around.
Binging is because of lack of self-control: Binging is because of unresolved emotional tensions or not allowing yourself to eat what you really want, when you really want it.
Have a cheat meal once in a while to cut down cravings: Don't put any foods off limits and they'll stop being so special.
Don't add sugar to anything because processed sugar is BAD: If adding a spoonful of sugar to your cocoa powdered oatmeal will satisfy your chocolate craving, don't pretend that unsweetened chocolate will satisfy you.
White flour is BAD, whole grains are GOOD: Food is not inherently good or bad. Food is neutral.
When you feel a craving coming on, it's because you're lacking x nutrient, so eat this food: When you feel a craving for chocolate coming on, eat half a chocolate bar instead of greek yogurt, a big bowl of fruit, three pieces of ezekiel bread, a cup of nuts, and three chocolate bars anyway.
Scrolling through pages of fitness models will motivate you to get in shape: Scrolling through pages of fitness models will cause feelings of inadequacy and self-disrespect.
Lack of discipline and self-control are responsible for fitness failures: Depriving yourself of what you really want and getting burned out on exercise are responsible for fitness failures.
You can look like this fit person if you stay on track: You will look like what healthy you is supposed to look like when you do exercise that makes you happy and eat foods that make your body AND mind feel good!
Has anyone done LiveFit?
I need something to help me get into weights because I’ve been intimidated by them. My eating has slipped and I just need something over all to get me back on track. Any reviews or advice?
“You don’t need a detox plan, you need to stop eating shit.”
– Nate Miyaki (via killfatme)
I'm sad!
I just want to cuddle and be loved. I hate when I feel like this. I wish the husband would get off the computer and love me.
Wow... Ok
Time for a Facebook/ tumblr break… Maybe bed… Hopefully tomorrow will be back to regular programming.
I'm not sure...
If looking at all the beautiful super for women on my dash is helpful or just depressing. I know things take time. I know! But god I am so sick of having so much fat! Just go away already!
